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here i am trying to take your hand,

show you the true definition of a man,

hope you understand, and just land,

to the conclusion of “god damn”,

“this dude is really that serious”,

yes my lady, i’m really that curious

as to where this leads,

this might be the last puzzle piece i’ll ever need,

got weird taste, but still look electrifying,

one glance at that face there ain’t no denying,

sounds like i’m in fear to confront,

reality is you’re what i need to flaunt,

cause kings naturally sit in front,

stuntin with a blunt, nothin but high end,

flyin, heaven high, no sirens,

need a chick that never has anything to hide.

cause whats a king without loyalty by his side.

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i guess that could be the subject of this little entry.. long story short, i’ve never been close to my mom. of course i love her and care for her, but i’m not close with her. we don’t share the same view on things, we don’t spend time together, none of that stuff. SUREEE i’d love to do all of those things with her, but every time i try to make an attempt it always escalates to something big and she always says she’s ashamed of me, thinks i’m dumb, thinks i’m worthless, would rather have her friends kid over me…lol. it’s almost unbelievable; the shit that comes out her mouth. growing up there was almost a bar for me to surpass. hated it. dj reply, hate-hate-hateeeed IT! i was never good enough for her..but i still love her..that’s my mom. 

knowing is only half the battle…between heart and mind. it’s YOU, yourself and the actions you choose to take, that’s when you want to be happy. happiness is not a destination, it’s a journey. like how i thought i loved you. i regret the day i told you that to be honest. i just enjoyed your company so much that i just said it cause i had no other way of explaining how i felt at the time. but i was just……….. happy, if i could go back in time to enjoy those moments again, i would. but hey. you live and you learn. i blew it. lol but know i’m gonna always care about you though…you should know who you are.

it’s about time, you all stop n’ stare,

this nice boy on the track, look he’s right there, 

please don’t grill me, how you gon’  toss me,

woke up to the green and a fat ass blunt see,

i was born in ‘89, no not ‘90

i’m still in the lead and you’re all behind me,

so stop with your rappin’ n quit with your bluffin’,

your whole damn crew knows that you’re nothin’,

all of you is weak, n’ all of you is whack,

you gonna let this nice boy do you like that,

diss you like a bitch, n’ treat you like Hussein,

n’ talkin’ all this fake shit sayin’ how you lame,

n’ how you ain’t good, you ain’t got no swagga,

thinkin’ you made the top when there was no ladder,

you just feel your self, no one else, even sadder,

here, you need a job? cause your career just got shattered,

Make way for the animal, better get your camera,

workin’ cause the money open doors like a janitor,

know that you a fan of us, bad bitches fanning us,

livin’ like a business hope you witness i’m the manager,

flow hotter than pepper seeds in panama,

worn out tires, yeah i don’t think you can handle us,

i’m in her crease like some panties that she can’t adjust,

plus i’m lookin handsome so i’m boutta pick my ransom up…….

I used to want this shit forever and now I want it never/
rap used to go hard and now it’s like a bird feather/
drop these “new” boys and see the old school is better/
new dances keep comin’ call them bad chain letters/
and these “gangsters” with tight pants and rainbow dresses/
piss me off and i’ll turn you pussies to bloody red messes/
Shotty’s and nines in the headrest/
catch them in they sleep and leave the kittens whole bed wet
When a bitch starts naggin, i can make her frown/
If she keeps messin with me, i’ll call Chris Brown/
I can get 7 medals, without no help/
while smokin at the back yeah call me Michael Phelps/
 i don’t see renegades/
i see watered down rappers i call em lemonade/
i’m k-y jelly on a track so i penetrate/
my 16 bars will make david blane levatate/

I go the hardest for all this,its retarded.
lu kang killing, mortal kombat, flawless.
pause this, push the 2 lines right now.
freestyle off the top, let me take off the crown.
people know me like the fresh prince chorus.
one word to describe me, no need for a thesaurus.
immortal!!, that’s what i am, that’s what i’ll be.
The only guarantee in life is eternal sleep.
hold on to the moment, keep it tight control it.
a heart breaks easier is a heart that’s frozen.
i take it first.
noone dares to take my words so i disperse this curse.
forever is a long time.
speaking through a strong mind.
i have sense of urgency, i always gotta get mine.
sublimes is my exit.
so why would i let it, take me to the top without giving all the credit.
to anyone that’s hated, never been debated, erased or elated.
i would never trade it for another lifestyle.
came from the bottom to the top all with a smile.

Mic-Check, inspect
Deadly disease i infect
The mind, Spittin venom makin niggas blind
blunt smoke, venture the cloud nine
Intellectual like Albert Einstein
With the glock i burst
Cut your throat for blood, i thirst
Pop Pop, I chop chop
You niggas entertaining the butcher shop
Drop you and your crew like the twin towers
Put you in peices, and i devour
Sit back like the GodFather sippin champagne
Line yall niggas up, and snort you like cocain
Maintain insane, refrain from the profanity
gettin women and paper fair like vanity!

money money money is what i be gettin/
money so fat my pockets don’t fit em/
so rich i got my own currency rates/
stackin so much money i got my own money crates/
no need for banks/
no need for fares/
catch me in a cab going straight to bel-air/
smokin all these blunts is makin me hi-c/
step on my cash, a juice-box, now you as high as me/
pussy ain’t on my mind, something more like gucci/
when i rock the louie, you be rockin stussy/
heres a hundred racks, i’ll give it to you for free/
cause even with that, you still ain’t richer than me/

I make it rain down hard until the levees break/
So grab your scuba gear cause we gonna drown today/
Put your head to the ground and pray for your sake/
cause the next time you see water, its gonna be a green lake/
since rubberbands break, i wrap it with a tire/
i’ma king in my life, address me by sire/
I don’t give a fuck who you are or what you say/
If you tell me not to do it, i’ma do it anyway/

Girl it was supposed to be me and you till the end of the world, I was your guy and you were my number one girl,I loved you so much i needed you daily,
I was even gonna let you enslave me,
but no more is to be had,
cause everytime i turn to you it ends up being bad,
realizing i can dive into the sky without you,
cause sky high is where i wanna be, not ocean blue,
if you really wanna know her name,
she goes by dro, weed, but i call her mary jane.

the pinky came that’s when i promised you/ then the ring one came that’s when i loved you/ then the middle one came i said fuck you/ then the index stood and threw up the one-two/ i’m bout to let her know, i gotta let her go, i chase cash baby girl, never women though/ attract centerfolds, playboy..now you know/ those shots on TMZ left us both too exposed/ time to move on, get your own groove on/ Me..i made you hot, now you settling for lukewarm/ i’m happy to inform, my new girl is drama free/ no need for surgery, to cut you off…amputee/you’re just useless, i’m tired of excuses/ no more talking out the side of your neck…nooses/ you’re such a neusance, too dumb too useless, now i’m chuckin up the deuces,

Maliciously Vicious/ Niggas fake and fictitious/ On beats I’m Relentless so pay attention and Witness/ My competition is grown men infants/ Hip Hops Apprentice, pushed to the limit/ You pretend to win it, I proceed to spend it/ My knowledge is logic/ real shit, no counterfeit money to profit/ shit is cool/ till them heaters start poppin’/ Make ‘em look and make ‘em blink/ Gun in face, make ‘em think../ Mic-Check, inspect/ Deadly disease i infect/ The mind, Spittin venom make niggas blind/ blunt smoke, venture the cloud nine/ Intellectual like Albert Einstein/ With the glock i burst/ Cut your throat for the blood i thirst/ Pop Pop, I chop chop/ You niggas entertaining the butcher shop/ Drop you and your crew like the twin towers/ Put you in peices, and i devour/ Sit back like the GodFather sippin champagne/ Line yall niggas up, and snort you like cocain/ Maintain insane, refrain from the profanity/ gettin women and paper fair like vanity!/

The real verse is about to be on later today please stay tuned..it’s gonna be a fun one.

Reality, it all coats him/
like a sponge he lets it all just soak in/
Spreading all over, like baby lotion/
especially since we live on the best side of the ocean/
Fear is on one side Hope lies on the floor/
Emptiness on the inside His future’s a closed door/
Now he’s in a hole Not even a shovel/
Stranded alone Now he’s in trouble/
He sits down grabs his pad and pen/
And realizes that’s his only real friend…/
”see the thing is i miss you, i really do/
but if i love you then i gotta let you go too/
sure it might not seem right right now/
but i gotta expand the sight and zoom right out/
sure i might not be the dude you ever want see/
but i don’t want you to be the girl that haunts me/
So many signs that say out but I can’t find the key/
I live with tortuous thoughts that just refuse to flee/
Regrets a neighbor that knocks on my door consistently/
Constantly reminding my sight of the dreams I want to see/
Never knowing for certain if these dreams come true/
im forced to keep my head up to a dark sky with little blue/
the people you know become ones you knew/
forced to sacrifice the little you have just to make it through../
What I fear most is whats always in my ears most/
So I just listen to the hate and let my tears coast/
Down my face as my lyrics are embraced/
And I’m feeling like happiness is something I can taste/
But when it hits my tongue the taste is so bitter/
I remember when I used to hate the cold winter/
But now I love it cause I know standing above it is God/
And hes lookin down on me I can hear him applaud/

i walk my town like a grizzly, my feet are so bare/
cause i run this show daily no tv to stare/
no reason to care if you haters get mad at me/
i stay positive like the tip of a battery/
now that i got this off my chest its time to start spittin/
you know who to call when you need somethin written/
i can sell a record even if the cd skippin/
i ain’t neva lion & i damn sure ain’t kitten/
listen, y’all need to cut the bullshittin/
how you poppin bottles, when i don’t see you sippin/
how you make it rain when the ceilin ain’t drippin/
niggas struttin actin like they gotta car to be whippin/
please come at me with all these lies/
i’ll make you see clearer with some black and blue around your eyes/
niggas go ahead and hate me for what i am/
it’s coo i know i’m too complicated to understand../

Maliciously Vicious/
Niggas fake and fictitious/
On beats I’m Relentless so pay attention and Witness/
My competition is grown men infants/
Hip Hops Apprentice, pushed to the limit/
You pretend to win it, I proceed to spend it/
My knowledge is logic/
real shit, no counterfeit money to profit/
shit is cool/
till them heaters start poppin’/
Make ‘em look and make ‘em blink/
Gun in face, make ‘em think../
Mic-Check, inspect/
Deadly disease i infect/
The mind, Spittin venom make niggas blind/
blunt smoke, venture the cloud nine/
Intellectual like Albert Einstein/
With the glock i burst/
Cut your throat for the blood i thirst/
Pop Pop, I chop chop/
You niggas entertaining the butcher shop/
Drop you and your crew like the twin towers/
Put you in peices, and i devour/
Sit back like the GodFather sippin champagne/
Line yall niggas up, and snort you like cocain/
Maintain insane, refrain from the profanity/
gettin women and paper fair like vanity!/

yo..
sittin here feelin like i’m on all fours/
gettin up to grease the elbows, given tours/
around the heart, mind, soul, concious, core/
suited up penguin, let me open the door/
be surprised to what’s in store/
not young gettin cob webs, nothing to adore/
sittin up right, prayin, light shinin to gods galore/
yearnin for the warmth, please give me MOREEE/

changin it up, no more same me/
no more lecks101 this is phieu, believe/
drugs dissolve and decease/
then the addiction is released/
alter egos collide, no peace/
demons relinquish the good side/
then the good and bad collide/
mind explodes not knowing which way to go/
Illuminati wants to rob you of your soul/
they can take that, never the love in my heart, NO/
lives are meant to be lived/
yoda, god died for your sins, he did/
give me that freedom now as i can believe/
that god passed me a good life to receive/
cause i’m now standing tall, no more living on my knees.

i’ma spit fire no gasoline/
then spray you with the 12 and discretely leave/
just savagely/
you fuckin challenging me?/
i’ll kick you off a mothafuckin balcony/
try to knock me over man i’m still balancing/
and if you want kip man i’ll cut you into smithereens/
i’m mr. clean, and my friend here is mr. cream/
and i’m in your bitch’s mouth like listerine/
i smoke like the bear,
drink like the ocean,
henny like the adult super apple juice potion,
do more drugs than d.r.e DARE!
if i make a mistake boy you know its prolly rare
killed this beat more than the electric chair
i fucked around and caught a buzz like a lightyear
got a woody like allen that you might fear
stop fuckin with my toys,boy you’re a stupid queer
I spit classic shit prolly thought it was holy writ
ain’t m.c. hammer but my shit is legit
2 legit,
2 legit to quit,
this the second time i fucked the beat,i’m not celibate.

aye what i need to do is stand up/
no more dirt on my shoulders, no more being corrupt/
Ain’t that cute, look at you & the lines you wrote/
I see my son is STILL tryna protect me relying on one quote/
you are now in fear without rebuttals/
i’mma play maker call me manning, no huddle/
So I clear you like rubble and when I’m slicing your throat/
leave the knife in there, hope you choke/
Save those lines bout them old ass sailors/
I bet seamen are your heroes & you like them in your tail huh?/
Talking bout galleries & scoping at the sky/
Let’s me know you lose calories poking wit them guys/
You went from a compliment to kicking obnoxious shit/
I meant 2 spit toxic, face it you can’t stop it!/
okay i’m a source of a fart, the meaning of a thought/
the winner of a match if we had ever fought/
okay i finger paint, don’t be haters/
my 1st grade art would sell more than European painters/
like charlie i’m winning don’t get mad at me/
my flow is more loved than Picasso’s whole gallery/
i won the war someone call the fucking cavalry/
no more enemies, no more mothafucking strategy/
now i can live my life as alex see/
excuse me as i smoke the loud and fly to the galaxy/