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today i was taught that open relationships will never work.. if you want to be with someone then be with that one person and in the time you two hang out with eachother show her or give her your best. don’t just hide behind shadows or base logic on past mistakes cause not everyone you’re interested in are the same. stay yourself, even if it means that you and that significant other don’t end up being together. at least you know you tried and that you can enjoy fun and happy memories with the friendship you’ll end up having..it made a lot of sense to me..i mean as much as i’ve been hurt in the past, it shouldn’t hinder me from being myself. which is why i vow that from this day on, which ever girl i’ma choose to be at the other side of the table, is boutta be the luckiest girl..

another thing i learned, i might have ADHD..not trying to self-diagnose myself, but i definitely need to get to a doctor asap and get it straightened out…if i do, DAMN lots of things in the past would make sense to me now. but we’ll see. till next time.

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