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to the future lady…*who ever that is…

haha man. thinking about you brings a huge smile to my face. what coulda been, what actually still could be, or what should have been done, and things i woulda done to keep you..

like no joke i was chasing stupid shit back in those days. i was a “cool” kid. played sports, got into fights, made money, tryna date older girls haha basically all the worse decisions a little middle schooler could make in life. although..on the low i always did think that you were cute. to keep in touch for this long and still not express how i really felt growin up and even till now..it’s rough, but i laugh at myself despite not telling you. to me the fact that i’m still attracted to you after knowing absolutely nothing about you, keeps that curiosity and feeling there. just like the first times when someone tells you to trust them, and you do. you don’t know anything about them, but you have a feeling you should trust them because who knows, she might be the girl of your dreams.

you have the qualities that only a special someone would deserve. of course i’m not saying i am that dude but i can try my best to be.. you deserve someone that can truly learn to adapt to the new adventurous things to show you and enjoy with you. sure missed a lot of time, but more better memories can and ARE going to be made. you deserve someone that can appreciate your art, your interests, asks you about your day, and continues to do that. i feel like thats how the relationship should work. we both live our own lives, but we come home to one another. be able to share new things everyday, and not talk about the same old depressing shit that comes on the news. spend private time without anyone in our business because the private time we spend will be on vacations, CHILLIN and EXPLORING different places on this earth. 

i’m gonna trust you just as much as you trust me. and with a bond like that i don’t think anyone can try or even attempt to deteriorate the love i have for you.

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